Hi. It’s me Bell.
I haven’t been consistent with my posts for the most part due to laziness and not knowing what I want from this blog.
To be honest, I still don’t know. I wanted to make money from it to help my mom, but I can’t even write enough to do that.
I hate ads, so I wasn’t going to go the whole “let’s make soooo much money off this”. But I still came with the wrong mindset, attitude, and mental state.
I was not in a place to help inspire others because I really hated myself.
I hated how I looked, how others may view me, and where I was in life.
I mean I flunked out of college the first time because I couldn’t stop my pathetic excuse of a social life. I wanted the college experience. I wanted to be cool. Reinvent myself.
SPOILER ALERT: Not with your whole leg in a crutch!
Then I stayed home for an entire year wallowing in my own pity (and possibly depression). Went to the Community College I always stigmatized in my mind. Transferred after two years there back to my old university.
And here I am in my [super] senior year of college. It took me 7 going on 8 years, but I’m almost there.
With all of that in my mind, I am not an inspirational person at all. I ama wallflower. And I like being one.
This blog is meant to be an extension of me and my life. I don’t want to hide anymore.
So this is my promise to anyone that reads something on this blog.
I will be true to myself. You will read my voice, my thoughts, my emotions. You may not agree with them, but I’m happy to hear your side because I’m still learning.
( ﾟдﾟ)つ Till the next post.